Recently got to noe someone. Was talking to him and suddenly i realli felt so thankful to God. I do not know what exactly happened to him in his past relationship 2 years ago but every single thg that he said to me sounded so emotional. He was hurt and the hurt did not heal, he was so so bitter, not being able to love again freely cos he bear so much resentment. He builds a tall wall between himself and other gers, juz to protect his heart. Nothing wrong to protect ownself frm hurts but overdoing it is a disaster. I could totalli c that his next relationship is heading into failure if he does not pull himself out of it.

Hearing him somehow reminded me of myself. The me after breaking off wif Ryan. The me who do not dare to love again, telling myself that abstinece and the best prevention. The me who feels that noone will be able to accept me and love me. The me who at one point became so bitter that i could not truly congratulate ppl from the bottom of my heart when they find their true love. I became someone who self victimised. Looking back, how would anyone love a ger lk me then.

But now i juz want to thank God. I thank God for everythg tt the church teaches, every word that my frenz shared and every book that i haf read. Somehow, i dun noe when and how, i realised how disastrous my life was. I thank God that i made a decision to change. I thank God that he gave me a new perspective of looking at things. I thank God that he heals the hurt, remove the fear, gif me new hopes and made me a more positive and optimistic person. So i realli wan to thank God for being a moulder of my character, that thru each failure, i haf became stronger.

Till today, i still believe that nothing happens out of coincidence, everythg that happen ard us happen cos of God's plan and if we open our eyes to see and open our hearts to receive, we'll realised how much we can learn each dae. Thank God for being THE GOD, Creator of heaven and earth. Thank God for his love, nuturing character and patience. Thank you my Lord.