Was wondering if i shld post some of the events tt happened todae tt contributed to my super bad dae. Was worried that some thgs i said might hurt other ppl or affect others who read my blog. But tis's my blog, suppose to be a place where i can release my emotions. Well, i try to keep everythg as confidential as possible.

My dae was initialli strted fine. But it was onli less than an hour frm strt of work that my dae was tarnished. Overheard my senior talking to one of my fren abt a seminar tt's coming up and they need an OT to give talk during the seminar. The doctor in charge suggested my fren. Well, i must admit i kinda felt hurt. Number 1, she's already out of the rotation. Number 2, i am doing geri longer than her. I agree that she is a veri good therapist, sometimes i do think that she's much better than me. But being bypassed like this makes me juz wonder if i've done anythg wrong or not so good or at least i have not done well enuff to be recommended to give the talk. Though my fren tried to comfort me by saying that i may not be around since it's happening at end of year, but i dun tink that is the reason y they did not suggest me. Thing is the wae the thg is being said does not even sound lk i was taken into consideration. Disappointed in myself more than anythg else actualli. Sigh.

Den to make thgs worse, gg into the ward where my most irritating patient lie, someone told me dunnoe who wants me to see him 3 times a dae. Siao. He does not even need me to c him daily. And he's so FON tt i could not even refuse to see him. How i wish he'd be discharge soon. I pray that God will send him home asap. Oh God, haf mercy on me. He's driving me up the wall!!!

Things does not end juz lidat. During MDM i feel equalli sucky. Dr kept asking me abt things abt cognitive retraining but can dementia patient's cognition ever be retrainable. God. Mayb i'm overly sensitive cos of the morning thg. Juz felt so sucky after the entire MDM.

Den went into my ward to review patient and my PT happily juz refuse to ambulate a patient simply cos he's on external fixator and he looks lk he has tremendous potential to work. When i discuss the case wif him, i juz conclude, he's trying to shun extra work which irritates the hell out of me.

Sigh. Work is juz work y m i putting so much emotions into my work. At the end of dae, work is juz smthg we do so that we can bring money back home is that not? Y m i feeling so affected by everythg at work. Feeling so PMS now. Sigh. God, reassure me, let me noe that everythg is still in ur hands and that i can praise u in every single situation, trusting in ur faithfulness that u haf a plan for me and everythg happens for a good reason.