I hate it when everytime i decide to gif up, he'd come to me and flirt with me. It makes me waiver again. But it realli hurts big time when u feel that the person u lk is not willing to make a commitment and all he wants is to flirt with you and lust for u. I'm not easy catch, neither m i lose and cheap. So can't he juz stop everythg tt he's doing and gimme a break. Arghx. Realli do not understand man at all.

Is it juz that all man r so selfish, or is it simply cos he's not a Godly man. I realli wan someone who don't lust after me but juz love me as who i am. Looks will fade awae some dae. I'd grow old some dae. I need security to noe that even if i become ugly one dae, i'd still be loved simply for the Serene she is.

My fren yesterdae came to tell me that guys dun treasure easy catch. Though there's no under meaning, but it hurt big time, suddenly felt lk i was viewed as cheap, lose, throwing myself onto him. But it's juz all not true, i'm juz being real to my own feelings. Crap. Shitty man. Dun understand them at all. Dunnoe how i shld be reacting cos man r juz wierd.