I've lived 24 years of my life, some values are already deep within my heart while others are new values i adopted as i grow up but i'm still struggling to come to terms with these values and haf it fit in my life.

My latest wrong relationship has been so quiet that hardly anyone had known it. However, it sets my mind thinking realli hard. If God had meant for this wrong relationship to happen it muz be happening to set me thinking abt things that i refuse to tink or haf chucked aside for so so long~

What kinda qualities do i want in my bf? This is a question i did not realli think abt. My relationship most of time happens cos, well, i juz haf a crush on this someone, i dun even noe y. And this someone happen to like me, i so happen to also need someone during that time and there u go we got 2gether. But can love realli overcome every single thing in life? Can love realli overcome every single differences 10 years down the road? I seriously tink it's time i sit dwn to think abt these question so that my next relationship will no longer be a "goodbye" in few months time type. Though half the time i'm ditched. Mayb is retribution. Lol.

Second question, is it a must for my bf to be a christian? I half gave up trying to believe tt if i get 2gether wif sm1 he will be converted. Wat if he never? Den wat m i suppose to do? We might juz get irritated with one another cos i wan him saved and he refuse to be saved. Faint. So if i decide that if it is imp that my bf must be a christian den i better onli date a christian. If my answer is no den i shall not even bother to convert my bf. Accept him as who he is.

Third question i'm struggling with, is God realli real? If God is not real who m i sacrificing and limting myself for? Scary question that i dunnoe how to handle and confront. But i noe these questions need to be answered b4 i get into nxt relationship and they're all interconnected, cos 1 kinda leads to the other. Well, well, shall seek God's wise consel come dae to talk abt it. Lalala.