Finalli i completed my application for my Masters in Occupational Therapy in HK Polytechnic University. It's realli a mix feeling. On one hand i realli feel that it is God's timing to go for the masters programme (or m i hallucinating) and i'm all excited abt the fact that i can finalli achieve an important goal in my life and i can spend a year abroad to learn and mould myself abit more. On the other hand, i fear, fearing of the uncertainties i'd face there. All alone overseas with no frenz and family, unfamiliar with the culture and unable to speak the language. Not having people who loves accepts me to tell me that everythg is alrite.

Hmmm, tink i'm overall still a negative person as much as i pump in positive self tots to boost myself up. When thgs dun go the wae i wan it to go, i wonder if the problem lies in me. I guess smtimes it does but smtimes it does not. But y does shit alwaz happens and there're so much thgs for me to fear and worrie. I realli wan to be more confident in myself and stop worrying, juz do everythg to my best.

Even though i kinda finalli was able to convince myself tt i'm not too bad a therapist, sometimes i wonder if i realli m as wat people said, a therapist with good groundings and that i shld not doubt myself. My work performance smtimes make me wonder otherwise. God!!!

Okie, i shall try to be more positive once again. Instead of lamenting, i shall once again work harder to improve myself lk any other time so that once again, i can sae that i haf done well. Hopefulli all my nonsense thoughts will come to an end soon. =)