Sigh, relationship is so so confusing. Now he's not the onli one who's confused. I'm equalli confused 2. I haf decided that my bf need to be a christian, so technicalli he's out of the game but i juz kinda lk him a little a little and everytime i talk to him online, he'd stir the emotions a little a little. But i juz tink that his confusion is probably caused by us progressing too fast and it might be better for me to disappear for a month or so to somewhere else. I juz kinda fear that if i decide to wait at the end of dae, it's juz another disappointment lk last relationship. Plus, i dun tink he'd ever meet the spiritual criteria of mine.

At this time, there come another guy frm church. I dun even haf the mood to tink of this question. But it's making everythg so luan and irritating. Though he did not directly ask me, but i noe he lks me. All i can sae is wrong timing ba. Plus i dun tink he can provide me wif the financial security i need.

God, y can't u juz stop playing ard wif me. Stop making relationship so confusing. I juz need 1 ideal 1 and no need so many. Sigh. Colecting seashells and choosing the best, but if u haf too many seashells, it causes alot of problems 2.