When God says "no", i insit on going forward. Then i kinda regretted cos i do not q wan to walk out of God's will for me. I wan the best in both worlds. But in life, there's alwaz a choice to make.

Was at the crossroad, but i still m unwilling to make the decision. But God was still good, he knew everythg and planned everythg. At the crossroad, the decision was made without saying that i wanna let go. I was made to let go.

Yet again, time is short and memories are few. Pain felt was definitely much lesser. This relationship as wrong as it is, had its good points too. I realised that dating non-christian will never work unless i haf every intention to walk out of God. I also had new memories to replace my feelings for the old ones and since this memories r almost inexistent, i believe i could easily refocus my life back on God.

Even though shit happens cos i did not obey, but i can still thank God for alwaz walking behind me and reorientate my life back to his will for me. I thank God that nomatter what happens, i can still trust his character 2dae, 2ml and forever. I thank God that my life is in his hands and he has a plan for me, one that is for good and not for evil, one that has a future and hope. Just wanna thank God for being so loving and nuturing, for loving me as who i am forever~

It's juz a short dream. Thank God, i woke up.