Was reading Mavis's blog and came across an entry abt her past relationship. I was so moved and touched. Was thinking abt my own scarred past. Wonder wat would happened if i met him. But i tink God has been good to me. The dae I decided to end the relationship, i told God i do not wan to bear hatred and amazingly i dun tink i realli hated him though my heart realli aches everytime he msged or i talk to him. And i admit, i do haf some "yuan wang" de gan jue. I think i juz haf not courage to face him. I hope that in this entire lifetime, i do not need to meet him ever again. Or will God wan me to face my fears sm dae.

Everytime i look at Mavis, i somehow manage to find some hope in the bleakness of my own relationship in life. Though i tink her walk wif God is definitely better than mine, but i realli wanna walk through my life lk her. Though she's younger than me, but my admiration for her is frm bottom of my heart one lo. She has everythg tt i tink i do not haf. Hahax. Well, hope one dae, i'd look back at the past me and be able to sae, "indeed God has changed me."