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Baby Ger

A ger who's forever dear to her creator in heaven, born into a humble family on 14th Dec 1984. Her parents gave her the name Serene Kwek Si Ling. She wandered on earth excelling in her studies from Li Hua Pri to Presbyterian High to Anderson JC and finally NYP. She graduated as an Occupational Therapist but started to face more challenges. She got to the point where she wonder what life is all about. God's grace was upon her, he chased after her heart and in August 2006, the ger finalli decide that she needs God in her life. She was baptised in Dec and have Athena as her baptism name. This ger is now still seeking to improve herself, find out her purpose in life and in search for the partner God destined for her.

11/27/2008 10:09:00 PM

Thursday, November 27, 2008

Sometimes i realli feel so tired to live up to people's expectation. I noe i'm not perfect and being "I" lives at the state where people either like or hate u. I'm veri expressive when it comes to emotions. Yes, i may sometimes be super tactless, sound proud, idiotic or even irritating, but seriously, that's the me i m. Crazy most of time. But y is it that nomatter wat face i gif i aso get criticised.

Is being S better, everythg tt happen u juz smile and ignore. Y the hell did God make ppl who're so terribly criticised by the world. I hate it when people criticise the real me. Do i alwaz haf to put on a false front? Everyone can be themselves but i cannot. Smile aso kanna sae, play as ' kanna sae, gif black face and be serious aso kanna sae. And stop telling me" I noe u r lidat but... Dun act as if u noe me when u dun. Do u noe wat thgs go thru my mind. I dun even tink u're anywhere near my fren category. We're juz acquintance. Get lost!

Totalli dun feel lk playing basketball tis yr. Play till so unhappie since dunnoe when. y the hell do i wanna play the sport. Mayb i juz do not haf talent in it. Or mayb the team or the game does not suit me. Gimme a break. Let me juz be who i m for once without having to tink of other ppl's feeling.

I tink of other people's feeling who tink of mine? Aren't i alwaz hurt by ppl's words and when r these people tactful in the 1st place. Stop always sayin, "Serene, you shld not.... (A-Z).

If u hate me juz get awae frm me. Dun even need EQ. Juz ignore me and dun be my fren. It's not like i realli trust fren anyway. Juz dun wanna end up in a state where i tink tt being withdrawn is the best solution. Shld i juz ignore everythg, gif a str face everythg ppl sae. I realli wish i can, but do u noe how diff is it for me.

SHUT THE HELL UP!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! WAT THE HELL!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! HATE EVERYTHG NOW!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! GIMME A BREAK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

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