10/15/2008 03:51:00 PM
Wednesday, October 15, 2008
It's again about a month since i last blogged. So here i am again to update my blog. But you know wat, i'm updating it partially cos i'm so super bored at home. If you wonder y, that's cos i'm on 1 week of hospitalisation leave after removing my wisdom tooth.
I do agree that having 1 week of leave sounds great. Super good time to juz slack off. But it's not so when u've got nthg much to do and end up trying very hard just to find entertainment for yourself. I've tried watching shows. No doubt shows r great but after watching for a while, u feel sick and tired of it. Den i change to reading comic. Equalli boring after a while. Wat else haf i tried? Reading a book. But seriously, i'm not quite into the mood of reading now. I even tried cooking. But dun q enjoy the process of having to wash up so gave up again.
God, wat shld i do wif tis plenty time that i'm blessed with. I tink being on leave for 2 or 3 daes consecutively is good for rejuvernating. But 1 full week of leave without anythg to do is realli killing!!! Hahax.
Nonetheless, was talking to one of my fren about purpose in life. Realised that there're many ppl who realli missed the real purpose in life. I dun q understand how can anyone claim, living a simple life, eating, slping and enjoying is a purpose in life. I have nothing against living a simple life but just imagined that throughout your entire life all you do is eat, slp and enjoy. I then seriously wonder y shld i live. Cos i tink it's such a waste of time, energy for me to go through each dae. Imagined the pain and agony of waking up early each day to go to work and the amount of irritation u receive at work. Plus the dae to dae heart breaking experience that u haf. If all the pain and misery is all juz so that i can live a simple life, den mayb it's time i tell God i do not want this life.
I also does not haf any idea about purpose in life b4 i came to church. Maybe alot of who i am now is shaped by church, shaped by the bible and people in church. I'm starting to realised how some people must haf been feeling so lost, mayb they dun feel it but i feel it for them, without knowing God. Mayb there're those who are not that bad as to be lost, but i still believe that wif God in our lives, there's nthg to lose but loads to gain.
Though i dunnoe how, juz feel like using my life to touch the lives of people ard me. Not by hard selling the gospel but by real action to just make people's life a little better dae by dae. Though i would certainly pray that everyone whom i love will come to know God one of these daes cos i seriously believe that knowing him is my greatest blessing in my life.