I think i do not haf a very healthy emotions. It has been lidat since dunnoe when but i'm starting to feel that either i'm gaining more and more insight on my emotions or my emotional health is getting frm bad to worse.

I've concluded that i'm simply a grouchy person. My emotions forever affect others. But yet i cannot hide my emotions and end up mking alot of ppl sad. I nvexpect ppl to like me but i no need to makemyself so detestable. So i learn to run. Whenever i sense any bit of rejection, i run awae frm them. Is it wrong to even just be myself? I feel so tired having to put on a smiley front to face others. I noe it's not easy for ppl to handle my emotions but yet at the same time, i dun tink i've really wanted anyone to handle my emotions. Can't i juz haf some personal space to be ignored.

Sigh life is really a very tiring thing. sometimes i just wonder if i'mr ealli so difficult to befriend or i'm really so difficult to like. If i m then just let me live in my own word, out of the community. It's tiring trying to befriend people not knowing how much ppl accept you.

Oh God gimme a break~