2/20/2008 11:16:00 PM
Wednesday, February 20, 2008
Y have my life suddenly took a 180 degree turn. Last week everythg was quite good. But tis week everythg seems to have gone down the drain. I'm feeling so dry and burnt out.
Spiritualli, i'm feeling lk a piece of shit. And i realised when i'm not doing well spiritualli, it's written all over my action and all my priorities turn upside down. I noe it's wrong for me to not do QT, keep gg out, watch drama and slp. But i tink it's the easiest way for me to escape frm the terribel dae i haf at work. Sigh.
I'm feeling so so lousy at work. I dun even noe y i feel so lousy. I'm alwaz affected by ppl's reaction towards wat i sae and wat i do. I'm so sick of feeling so incompetent and am so sick of feeling so lousy. Sigh... Feeling lk a piece of shit.
God help me~ Sigh~
2/05/2008 12:11:00 AM
Tuesday, February 05, 2008
I dun usually blog much about spiritual stuffs in this blog cos i noe there're many non believers out there who reads my blog. But i was juz doing some self reflection todae regarding God and my walk wif him.
While i was spending time in God's presence todae, it suddenly struck me that my story with God did not begin on the dae of my salvation but since the dae i was born, or even before i am born. God has written a story of how he tries to win my heart before my salvation and after my salvation the story goes on to continue to explained how a stubborn girl lk me is changed and transformed.
Wat could i sae about God other than the fact that he is realli good and faithful. Through all my stupidity, all my sins, all my rubbish, God still tell me that he loves me. He still saes that i'm beautiful in his eyes and he sees my strengths when others onli sees my weakness. He still saes he's please wif me and proud of me. Todae i felt as if i've seen Jesus somewhere and now, we're in two different world. Technicalli i could still communicate wif him though i could not see him. And i realli miss his face so much. Wat could i tell him when i see him, i think i could onli tell him that I miss him so so much and i realli love him.
Even though smtimes during my life, i forget abt him, i make decisions without him. But i noe i still love him alot and alot. There's indeed noone else lk Jesus. Hugz~