Let me use a analogy to start off regarding my topic for today... Supposed you're very poor and for some reason, you do not have money to eat for 10 days... Would you think of what you would eat 2ml if you do not have the money to eat for the past 10 daes??? The answer would be NO!!! All you would tink of is wat could i afford to eat today...

Let me go into the topic for 2dae... The topic of y i decided to turn to Christ... Seriously, for one last time, i wanna announce tt i did not turn to Christ cos i kanna kong tao or wat lohx... Duh~~~ Who would put kong tao on me??? Who would benefit from me turning to Christ??? Hmmm... Let me see... Ryan benefiting frm me turning to Christ??? Mayb then he can leave me into God's hand and worrie less about me... But real benefit??? Not lk he'll haf any such tt he would put kong tao... Ah Li who brought me to City Harvest??? Tink she's too naive to noe how to put kong tao... And tink me turning to Christ meant she had to spend more time listening to all my nonsense talk... Gershon, my cell grp leader??? Hahax... Wat could he benefit??? Pastor Kong??? Tink to him, onli God's important... Not lk i'm damn rich to contribute to the church aso... I dun mean pastor kong onli lk rich ppl... But not lk my monetory contributions lk my mum is so possesive about is of any significance to the church... There're so many rich businessman out there... Y me???

So at the end of it, i'm juz trying to prove tt noone put kong tao so tt i would turn to christ... But i turn to christ cos of his grace and mercy to even notice a small life lk mine... A creator of heaven and earth, showered me with love when i was at the bottom pit of my life... Everythg in my life was chaotic at that point of time... My love life failed me, i'm totalli not adapted to the working world, my family disappointed me, my frenz are not in singapore else too pre-occupied wif their lives to realli counsel and listen to me... I was at the point of entering into depression... Suicidal tots entered my mind... But God showered me with his love and faithfulness, never letting me go even after i've done so much stupid thgs... He met my need for love at tt time...

He healed my hurt too... Through Christ, i've been strengthened... He gave me promises about my future and helped me see a purpose in what i'm doing at work... He told me he was my comforter so that i could be a comfort to others... That was when i became less disappointed wif my family... Yet my family aren't appreciative... They're realli lacking the wisdom to see the light in my life... The darkness was not smthg which i could dispel... Oh God... Help me...

Anyway, during the down times, it was not my family who came to comfort me... It's the ppl whom God placed around me, lk my cell grp frenz who made sacrifices to ensure i'm alrite... Not even one of my family member ever asked me, "R u feeling better..." All they did were to add salt to my wound and add new wounds to me... Dun you haf the cheek to tell me that my family is treasure in heaven cos when u abandoned me, it's God and my cell group frenz who picked me up... Where were u when i most needed u???