i realli din wan my life to turn out this wae... I realli wanted to lead a happie life for you... But it's juz so sad whenever i think of how my joy and my life is dependent on ur smses, every single word you sae and our meeting ups...

I noe u've been veri bz and irritated by ur work these few daes... But i feel so sad when i rcv none smses from u despite me msging you tons of times a dae... I realli feel hurt, forgotten and neglected... I've been finding excuses to cover up all these hurts but ultimately i realised it's not possible to cover them up... I find every single excuse i can get to get abit of ur attention... Even if it means juz 1 msg which sounds so cold... But guess u've already find tt it's a routine for me and no reason for u to entertain...

Whenever i look back at the past msges, tears would still flow dwn my eyes... And i realised i no longer dared to look at them... Yesterdae, i accidentally saw the angel you gave me during our 2nd month 2gether and saw ur msg... I cried lk mad... I realli yearn to go back to those daes... But i noe time won't turn back...

I realised the harder i try to get you back to my side, the further u seem to go awae... And the more paranoid i'd get... I'll strt doing thgs which i'm so afraid tt will make you upset... Even a thg lk writing this blog worries me...

I dunnoe if u're still reading my blog, cos already dunnoe if u're still interested in my life... Have i realli been very much forgotten or have you realli decided to leave me slowly... Nomatter how slow the process is it's still so hurting... For it's nv the speed, nor the quantity, it's how deep the wound would go...

I'm sorrie if u happened to bump into my blog and reading it makes you feel irritated... But i need to ventilate my emotions... Else i tink i'll die... Not lk ventilating my emotions this wae would help... But at least i let it out and i'd feel better for an hour or 2...