It dragged for so long... The dae had finally come for us to have a clean breakoff... Cos i noe if i persist, i'd lose him not only as a lover but also as a fren... He'd probably dislike me cos of my irritation... Not onli will i lose him, i'll also lose my sense of self... I knew i've been losing it ever since we broke off...

Yes... I muz admit that it's realli all so painful... Thinking back of the times we spend 2gether... Having each other in each other world so important... Looking back at the past msges and seeing all the gifts he'd given me... It's realli painful to see it coming to an end... I'll cry over and over again but i've to learn to let him go... Afterall, did'nt i wan him to be happie...

I noe he's stubborn... I noe nomatter wat i sae won't change the verdict... I juz pray for his healing and happiness... And pray we'll become close fren... At least even if he's not my bf or husband, he'd still be a specially close fren to me... But somehow i alwaz feel it's not possible to be close fren after u have broken off... But i still wanna try...

Ryan, thanks for all the memories you'd given me... You taught me that true love exist... Even though we have to become frenz again, i pray for our relationship/frenship, to be brought to a higher level...