Wanted to blog dwn everythg which i can remember about us being 2gether... My brain has a small storage space and i do not want to forget anythg significant...
30th March 2006: We got together... The process was so miraculous... I knew he love me and he was given green light by my best fren to zhui wo... Deep in me, i knew i'd haf accepted him... So he turned on gear 5... We got 2gether when i was looking at his hand, looking at the lines of his hands... He held my hands and tt's how we got together... My feelings at tt time, i can still remember it quite clearly... I was elated... Realli happy... Yet at the same time feeling q shy... Lol... Spastic...
For the nxt few daes, we met up almost everydae... Doin all sorts of funnie thgs... Lol...
14th April 2006: We were watching a movie "Inside Man"... After the movie, we went to a posh hotel... Westein Stanford 44-06... For ur info, it's the tallest hotel in the world... He knew i love the sea so he booked tt hotel facing the harbour view so tt i can tk a look at the sea... We found somethg to do which bond us... It became somethg which we share whenever we're together alone... (Our secret activity... so i shan't tell u guys wat it is) It was so romantic... I was so touched... On tt dae, i feel lk i'm the most fortunate ger in the world... I feel tt i've found the love i'm seeking for the past 22 years of my life... I knew he's the man of my life... I juz knew it...
30th April 2006: Our 1st month 2gether... I lied to my parents tt i'm gg chalet... I went camping with him... He even did his homework and found a spot at the beach... Beach again... Cos he knew my love for it... On tt nite, he made spaggheti for me... Cos i wanna eat it... Though it taste horrible cos it was cooked using mass tin but i still ate alot cos i'm hungry... Gers in love are hungry gers... He even brought his dvd player and he knew i juz fell in love with harry potter so i was watching it dere... Lol...
30th May: Our 2nd month... We went to Genting and KL 2gether with Li Ping and Ye Hong... We spent most of our time slping in hotel... But i was stil veri happie... Cos i'm wif him... And i knew he love looking at me slping... So i guess the daes went lk i slp and he look... Lol... Of cos he did slp 2... 4 of us squeeze into one hotel room...How lihai we are... This marks our 1st trip...
30th June: Our 3rd month 2gether... But we quarrelled... Cos there're some miscommunication... Cos i din hear tt we'll b gg for dinner so i told my mum i'll be home for dinner... I din explain tt i nv hear cos i dun wan him 2 tink i'm not listening to him and u noe i alwaz blur one lahx... But we wore a qing lu zhuang... Tink he bought from KL... It's super cute... Still haf loads of those photos with me... We spent the afternoon lazing at sentosa, criticising ppl... Lol... But tt dae was realli our big row...
4th month into relationship: I felt he has changed... I wonder is it cos of wat i did during the 3 months... He seem to be more pre-occupied wif other stuffs and spend less time wif me... But i was wrong... I tot he love me no more... But i was deadly wrong... He still love me sooooo much...
30th July 2006: I were suppose to be at chalet... He fetch me from work and we went to chalet... But i wanted to watch world cup... It had been smthg i did wif him though i'm no fan of soccer but i juz wan to share smthg in common with him... We had great fun watching television, chatting, and doing our favorite thg which we alwaz did when we're alone... It gifs us the bonding... Den he had to fetch me to work the nxt dae... Cos if he doesn't, i'll die travelling from bukit batok to changi... But he alwaz gif me a lift so tt dae would nv come, at least not den....
12th August 2006: He told me he has to leave me... He explained the situation to me... I regressed to be child like... I cried, i brawled, i told him i do not wan to be a good ger cos if i be one, he'll leave... But i knew his reasons are valid enuff... I knew he did it for my good... Many ppl may not believe him... May think it's his fault cos i din tell u guys the story... But no point spreading ppl's story ard... At least i do not want to spread it ard... He's the victim of the entire situation... So m i... We're the victims of heaven... A prank tt heaven played on us... I agreed to leave... But i made him spend the nite wif me as my bf... I wan a proper closure wif him... Tink i'm too OT le... We stayed in hotel intercontinental 10-09 cos i wan time alone wif him wif noone else by our side... I cried every now and then in the hotel... I begged him to let me stay by his side... But he insisted on leaving with the sadness which i could nv nv nv haf forgotten... We reviewed everythg which we had done for the past four months... Al the happie time we spent together... I feel lk smtimes i'm realli childish... I even told him abt my dreams of becoming Mrs Chong... Stupid rite... I dunnoe wat to sae... I juz told him alot and alot and alot... How i gave him the 1st massage... And he massaged me too... We did our secret activity for the last time... Last time i'm gg to do tt in my entire life... Cos it'll remind me of him...
13th August 2006: We parted at my hse at 12.30+... We hugged, we kissed, we held each other hands... This parting is so dramatic... I knew we're onli parting physicalli but emotionalli, we'll be with each other... Alwaz alwaz alwaz...
The entire story if anyone noes abt it will feel it's so dramatic... I tot it would onli happen in television programmes and movies... But it happened to me... It made me devastated and yet need to be strong and happie JUZ FOR HIM!!! But cos it made such deep impact in my life, i'll nv forget this short love and life we share... I dun tink i'll ever b able to find anyone to be comparable to him to b in my life...
DEAR DEAR, i noe u'll read my blog... I wanna tell u, i can choose to be happie and strong... But i'll nv choose to forget u and dun love you... U're my dear dear 4ever...
