2/04/2006 12:39:00 AM
Saturday, February 04, 2006
I had another war wif my mum 2dae when i reach hm... The topic of the dae was "alwaz tell u gers shldn't come home 2 late u dun listen... Dun make me angry, i'll change the lock and shall wait for police to come so tt everyone will noe... Wat if u met wif a rapist..."Conclusion i wanna draw from the above statement... 1stly, the whole world is nto filled wif rapist... All the gers whom i saw on train 2dae weren't rape are they??? Rapes happen in the morning 2 so shld i stay at home whole dae??? Wat if the rapist break into my house??? Duh~ Dun be lame can... If there's a problem, try to solve it... In this case elarn to self protect... Avoiding it does not prevent the problem from happening...Secondly, i dun foresee myself telling my family even if i'm rape one dae... I can foresee what they'll sae... "See! ask u dun come hm so late already... See wat happen now..." Instead of getting support, i'll be reprimanded... Adn i'm sure she'll use this as an excuse for me to stay at hm in future... C wat a non-supportive family can do to me... Hmmm... Nv over my dead body will they find out... unless i die!!!Thirdly, if one dae the lock is change, the police won't come... Cos i'll juz call my fren and tell her i go to her house 2 stay... I dunnoe is it she dun understand me well enuff or did she tink of me as an idiot... I'll come hm grab sm clothes and i'll move out... U do smthg horrible 2 me i'll not forgive u one lohx... U wanna shame me??? Fat hopes... I dun even need to depend on u anymore.... Dun cry and try 2 look 4 me... It's not lk i lose my mum... Be prepared to lose ur daughter if u do tt... Anyway, all ur sclding doesn't work anymore... I've grown to the age tt sclding no longer works because i've formed my own self-identity and i've my own values and believe system which i'll uphold nomatter wat... So dun tink u can change my juz by sclding me... U're juz pushing me awae and making me more sure tt i'll move out asap and get out of ur mo zhang... Try not to come home too often... Parents dun understand do they??? Though my frenz sae tt i may become lk my mum when i haf my own daughter... Though i dun deny tt there's the possiblity, i'd rather not haf children if i've to turn lidat... I dun wan my daughter to hate me... Self reflection is important... Actualli one shld not hold on to child too much... When the child is already 21... What they need is not instructions... Wat they need is juz support... Provide them wif the environment where they can explore with support... Odering dem ard dun help!!! Wat fools adults make!!!
