2/27/2006 12:49:00 PM
Monday, February 27, 2006
Everyone has a story to tell... So do i... Juz tt my experiece made me realise that there's no prince on earth so the princess will never live happily ever after, or rather i'll nv find tt prince...My story has been made up of all my past experiences since i 1st haf memory... My story is painted with dark base and bright colours trying to cover up the dark base colour... But nomatter how hard i try to cover these base colours, i could still see my bright colours tinted with the dark base...I've been wearing these stories on my face but juz tt people chose to see the superficial side of me... Now my story has stagnated cos i choose to let it stand still... I do not wan to add anymore colours to my story... I refuse to try anymore... Mayb i'm juz waiting... Waiting for someone... Someone who can join me as the writer of my story and prove to me tt bright colours could cover all the dark base colour on my book and that the ending of my book could be re-written...
2/17/2006 12:11:00 AM
Friday, February 17, 2006
2/16/2006 08:31:00 PM
Thursday, February 16, 2006
Okie... A veri delayed post... But this would haf shown u how non-excited i m abt this dae even though many ppl would think tt it's special... Well well... It's realli juz another dae isn't it??? For ppl who're unattached, even though it's also a friendship dae but it's so irritating to go onto the streets to see onli couples everywhere and a few souls like urself hanging out wif frens... For ppl who're attached, y dun u guys celebrate chinese valentine's dae??? Wat so special about 14th Febrary??? It's juz another dae is it not??? Stop congesting the roads and shopping malls and movie theatres... The singles need a life on tt dae 2... Well well, for me being unattached and refuse to date any one, i've decided to juz stay in sch to complete my project... And den i jzu came home and continue doing my project at home... Wat a great wae to spend ur valentine... But i got afew valentine msgs from my fren though... But still, it's juz a boring dae...*P.s. Juz trying to promote A*Mei's new cd again... Do buy her new album because i realli think it's q nice... And stupid Li Ping stop doing things against my law...
2/14/2006 02:53:00 AM
Tuesday, February 14, 2006
Y m i still up in the middle of the nite? Cos i could not fall aslp...Veri tired though, head aching like nobody's business but still can't get the slp...Triggering factor? It's all cos of my brother telling me that April from CGH called todae... Arghx... They've decided to haunt me even b4 i end my exams... I realli think i've got pre-work stress and anxiety... Juz CGH calling me has resulted in insomnia... Ahhh...I'm suppose to call dem back 2ml... Wonder what she'll tell me... Will my plea to strt work later be accepted??? I realli feel as if i'll be dying... Haix... Y the hell m i bonded in the first place???
2/04/2006 12:39:00 AM
Saturday, February 04, 2006
I had another war wif my mum 2dae when i reach hm... The topic of the dae was "alwaz tell u gers shldn't come home 2 late u dun listen... Dun make me angry, i'll change the lock and shall wait for police to come so tt everyone will noe... Wat if u met wif a rapist..."Conclusion i wanna draw from the above statement... 1stly, the whole world is nto filled wif rapist... All the gers whom i saw on train 2dae weren't rape are they??? Rapes happen in the morning 2 so shld i stay at home whole dae??? Wat if the rapist break into my house??? Duh~ Dun be lame can... If there's a problem, try to solve it... In this case elarn to self protect... Avoiding it does not prevent the problem from happening...Secondly, i dun foresee myself telling my family even if i'm rape one dae... I can foresee what they'll sae... "See! ask u dun come hm so late already... See wat happen now..." Instead of getting support, i'll be reprimanded... Adn i'm sure she'll use this as an excuse for me to stay at hm in future... C wat a non-supportive family can do to me... Hmmm... Nv over my dead body will they find out... unless i die!!!Thirdly, if one dae the lock is change, the police won't come... Cos i'll juz call my fren and tell her i go to her house 2 stay... I dunnoe is it she dun understand me well enuff or did she tink of me as an idiot... I'll come hm grab sm clothes and i'll move out... U do smthg horrible 2 me i'll not forgive u one lohx... U wanna shame me??? Fat hopes... I dun even need to depend on u anymore.... Dun cry and try 2 look 4 me... It's not lk i lose my mum... Be prepared to lose ur daughter if u do tt... Anyway, all ur sclding doesn't work anymore... I've grown to the age tt sclding no longer works because i've formed my own self-identity and i've my own values and believe system which i'll uphold nomatter wat... So dun tink u can change my juz by sclding me... U're juz pushing me awae and making me more sure tt i'll move out asap and get out of ur mo zhang... Try not to come home too often... Parents dun understand do they??? Though my frenz sae tt i may become lk my mum when i haf my own daughter... Though i dun deny tt there's the possiblity, i'd rather not haf children if i've to turn lidat... I dun wan my daughter to hate me... Self reflection is important... Actualli one shld not hold on to child too much... When the child is already 21... What they need is not instructions... Wat they need is juz support... Provide them wif the environment where they can explore with support... Odering dem ard dun help!!! Wat fools adults make!!!
2/02/2006 11:39:00 PM
Thursday, February 02, 2006
Well... As the topic itself haf explained, recently alot of thgs happened in my life and i strt wondering if i've been a veri irritating person who gets on everyone's nerve... M i over sensitive or wat... Hmmm... But i smtimes do find myself extremely inappropriate... I tink i do need some social skills training ba....But come to think of it, different people haf different character... Maybe my character and personality is those crazy and easily agitated type... Not a character that's veri easy to accept is it??? I just laugh happily even though i shld not... Well, my laffing genes are not within my control lahx... It's juz somethg very wrong wif my frontal lobe... No inhibition... Diaoz... Hmmm... Y do i haf to suit the culture of the world anywae.... Living a life not being urself is difficult isn't it??? Even if i'm deviant, eccentric, irritating and not veri well liked but it all doesn't matter as much rite... I can't make everyone happie... What i can do is to accept myself and be grateful to ppl who appreciates me as who i m... Lalala... This's another crappy entry... Been crapping out all my emotions recently... Mayb cos my work too bz le... So bz till i strt regressng, showing signs of craziness... Haix... How??? Wat can i do... Hmmm... I need to ventilate!!!
2/01/2006 12:58:00 AM
Wednesday, February 01, 2006
As i've expected, my CNY won't be the nicest CNY i have... It won't be the most memorable experience either... Well well... On the 1st dae of CNY i was totally pissed off by the adults ridiculous-ity, if there's such a word... Well... It's as though if u dun c Happy new yr to dem they'll be suay for the rest of the year lidat... Do i have such miraculous power??? Y don't i noe...As i alwaz sae i'm alwaz the passive person... Being passive in many thgs i do... Including saying happy new year... If u wan u can juz sae happy new yr to me and i definitely will wish u back... Wat makes the adults think tt if the youngster dun greet the more senior ppl happy chinese new year means tt they're rude??? Duh~ They're all ass... As i sae if u're gonna be suay juz cos i din sae happy CNY 2 u den 2 bad u shall b suay... Hump...Well enuff of all the unhappy crapz... But this yr is the 1st time i gambled throughout the 3 daes of chinese new year... I tink all of us are juz suddenyl bored by the idea tt we do not have much leisure during new year... My aunt actually proposed to play "ba luk"... Well, the happy me of cos juz joined in... But cos we play super small, onli $0.10 per game so in the end my net profit was $0.50, which i decided to gif it up... 2nd dae of CNY my gambling strted in the noon at LP's house wif Lp and her bro and his gf... Well, i tink lk wat Lp sae lahx her bro tried to entertain me by suaning me... I dun haf anythg against tt lahx... I can tk jokes wor... Hahax... But i lsot lahx... Tink Lp bro ke wo... Sobs... but din lose much... Onli lost $3.30... Hex...2dae was my best winning of this new year... Won $5.10... All thanks to my 2 sets of 5 tai... Hahax... Poor Chi... She yi jia shu san jia... But luckily A sam help her pay some i tink... At least not too much... Hmmm... It was fun lohx... Hmmm...However, 2dae when we were at Yong Zhi's house, ppl strt discussing about getting married... I tink everyone of us haf grown old le... Reach the point of discussing such issue... Though i've nthg against it but i juz tink tt i'm realli q evil... Whenever we talk abt LP bf to be i'll alwaz be so sarcastic... Y can't i gif her my blessings??? Cos i'm worried history will repeat itself... Hmmm... I'm juz worried tt i'll be left alone again... Though i tink i've learnt not to depend on others anymore... Veri stupidly, how can i be jealous of him... Hmmm... It's 2 different status... Well well... I dunnoe wat i tokin aso... But it's juz tt i hope i can gif dem my blessings one dae and stop being such an ass... But feelings cannot be controlled... Haix...