Well... 2dae i diagnose myself with autism... Y did i do tt... Cos i tink ppl will empathise wif me more if i'm autistic... Duh... As if they will... The world is ugly alrite... It juz is... The world expects u to conform to them... And refuse to let u behave the wae u are even if its not going to do u any harm...

2dae HT once again sae i'm aloof... I've been tryin so hard to tok to the therapists and the other members in the team... But HT don't recognise it... She saes she dun c me trying... But relationships and communication is a thg tt tks time to build and come naturally isn't it??? I admit tt i do not socialise much wif the ppl... But wat's the problem wif tt??? I'm juz not the kinda person who'll socialise wif ppl i'm not too familiar wif... And i muz sae even after 1.5 month, it's still not sufficient for me to feel comfortable to tok to dem... I mean it's wierd okie... Usualli i dun tk so long... But i muz sae this's not the best situation for me to make frenz and socialise ba... Cos i felt so pressurised to...

Veri xian... I've got so much to sae... But i cannot voice... I've got so much i want to ventilate but no listening ear... I juz feel so tired of everythg... Mayb the worst choice i've made is to be bonded... Haix... Dot dot dot...