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Baby Ger
A ger who's forever dear to her creator in heaven, born into a humble family on 14th Dec 1984. Her parents gave her the name Serene Kwek Si Ling.
She wandered on earth excelling in her studies from Li Hua Pri to Presbyterian High to Anderson JC and finally NYP.
She graduated as an Occupational Therapist but started to face more challenges. She got to the point where she wonder what life is all about.
God's grace was upon her, he chased after her heart and in August 2006, the ger finalli decide that she needs God in her life. She was baptised in Dec and have Athena as her baptism name.
This ger is now still seeking to improve herself, find out her purpose in life and in search for the partner God destined for her.
8/12/2005 04:16:00 PM
Friday, August 12, 2005
Wonder if the problem lies with me... Am i really so difficult to work wif??? I sometimes realli wonder... Is it onli whne i juz shut up, agree to everythg and let dem jeapordise my result den i am considered a good team player??? Mayb i juz cannot communicate effectively... Need to go for assertiveness training... Too bad... tink i'm more of aggressive than assertive person...
Hmmm... 2dae strted off well.. But ended horribly in sch... I noe S is in a difficult position... Oh well... Mayb i shldn't haf lost my temper... But i reali couldn't control it... How could i??? I've already requested K over and over again... Reminded her over and over again tt we dun haf so mucch time and told her tt she dun need to include too mnay examples cos we'll be touching behind... But she dun understand... Is it cos i'm so bad at explaining myself or is it cos she juz tk wat i sae as shit??? I realli tink it's the latter... So i flare up... Realli flare up... Cannot stand letting her talk for 10 min and behind no time to discuss with the class anymore...
Dunnoe... Juz gave up... My brain gave up talking ot her... My brain decided to lose control... My logic decided to let my emotions rule me.... Wateva... Now still damn pissed off... But this's not the onli project i'm doing wif her... Wonder how to continue working together lk this??? Mayb i shld realli learn to compromise??? Mayb i should totalli ignore??? Ignore my grades even if i noe i might fail??? Is this wat u expect me to do??? I dun tink i can ba... I juz need to learn to talk lk S... Need to learn to talk in a calm manner and not flare up when ppl gimme the bu shuang tone... Too bad... Juz b sad tt we'll be working together till end of next year...
This's why sayings will arise... This's why people sae xiang chu nan... This is way many ppl tinks working together is difficult... Mayb frequency different... Workign styles different... Too many thgs different... Everythg juz crashes...
I noe i aso gotta reflect... I shld not haf flared up... I should be in more control of my emotions... I shld learn to be assertive and not aggressive nor passive... But how easy is it??? I realli dunnoe how i can put it across... Nobody has ever taught me... And I nv seem to be able to learn... Hmmm... Despite being angry, i felt guilty too.... Haix... Wat's the point of regretting after flaring up...
