8/29/2005 09:00:00 PM
Monday, August 29, 2005
Guess wat... The exam time table is out... And the sickening sch u noe wat they did??? They actucalli placed 2 papers on our study week... Which means no more study week for us...We have papers on alternate daes... Arghx...And we got so much assignments due these few weeks... Where do i find time to study for my papers??? Wonder wat the lecturer wans...
Oh well... But at least i tink lit review has come to an end... It's time for proposal... Anyway, was talking to Felicia todae... Den happened to talk about our CRD for japan trip... She actualli said HB and the seniors find it rather sub standard... I actualli tot i put in alot of effort for it... But i noe my hands is not good... Dun even haf the foundation how to do clinical reasoning... Realli m quite sad... Cos realli tot we did not do too badly... But nvm lahx... Shall ignore... I quite cannot be bothered on lahx... Hahax... It's the cannot be bothered me as usual...
Hmmm... But 2dae at least got a good news lahx... A*Mei found her white mic back... M realli happie... Cos 1stly she can gif us veri veri nice songs again... And aso she can save money... So veri veri happie... Though i noe she q rich but tt amount of money can be used to do alot more meaningful thgs... Her kind heart realli pays off... YEAH~
8/12/2005 04:16:00 PM
Friday, August 12, 2005
Wonder if the problem lies with me... Am i really so difficult to work wif??? I sometimes realli wonder... Is it onli whne i juz shut up, agree to everythg and let dem jeapordise my result den i am considered a good team player??? Mayb i juz cannot communicate effectively... Need to go for assertiveness training... Too bad... tink i'm more of aggressive than assertive person...
Hmmm... 2dae strted off well.. But ended horribly in sch... I noe S is in a difficult position... Oh well... Mayb i shldn't haf lost my temper... But i reali couldn't control it... How could i??? I've already requested K over and over again... Reminded her over and over again tt we dun haf so mucch time and told her tt she dun need to include too mnay examples cos we'll be touching behind... But she dun understand... Is it cos i'm so bad at explaining myself or is it cos she juz tk wat i sae as shit??? I realli tink it's the latter... So i flare up... Realli flare up... Cannot stand letting her talk for 10 min and behind no time to discuss with the class anymore...
Dunnoe... Juz gave up... My brain gave up talking ot her... My brain decided to lose control... My logic decided to let my emotions rule me.... Wateva... Now still damn pissed off... But this's not the onli project i'm doing wif her... Wonder how to continue working together lk this??? Mayb i shld realli learn to compromise??? Mayb i should totalli ignore??? Ignore my grades even if i noe i might fail??? Is this wat u expect me to do??? I dun tink i can ba... I juz need to learn to talk lk S... Need to learn to talk in a calm manner and not flare up when ppl gimme the bu shuang tone... Too bad... Juz b sad tt we'll be working together till end of next year...
This's why sayings will arise... This's why people sae xiang chu nan... This is way many ppl tinks working together is difficult... Mayb frequency different... Workign styles different... Too many thgs different... Everythg juz crashes...
I noe i aso gotta reflect... I shld not haf flared up... I should be in more control of my emotions... I shld learn to be assertive and not aggressive nor passive... But how easy is it??? I realli dunnoe how i can put it across... Nobody has ever taught me... And I nv seem to be able to learn... Hmmm... Despite being angry, i felt guilty too.... Haix... Wat's the point of regretting after flaring up...
Watever, watever, watever!!!